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Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily task, go to sleep in peace. God is awake.

Victor Hugo

Halloween. Does anybody even care anymore? After spending a short time at the church harvest festival, I brought Isaiah home, only to discover that many of the houses in my neighborhood were dark. As if these people could not be bothered to buy some candy to give out to kids/teens. Is it that hard people? Is it that much of a bother, really? It made me sad. What ever happened to getting some enjoyment from seeing little kids dressed up? I decided not to take Isaiah out trick or treating, since it was probably pointless. Instead we stayed home to provide candy to other kids. And we did have quite a bit of them. I was glad we were there to give it out. I noticed one family that came by even took one of our flyers for the house. That was nice. Luckily for me Isaiah is at the age right now that he doesn't even care about holidays. If we showed no interest in them at all, he wouldn't even know he was missing anything. Christmas will probably be like that this year. I do want to at least read out of his children's bible, and tell him as best as I can what Christmas is, but we won't be buying gifts this year...at all. Not for anyone. We need to save our money up for the move. And honestly, Isaiah won't even care. You know why? Because he is 3 years old...he doesn't even know what is going on really. And Evelyn, well we wouldn't be getting her anything anyway. She is too young. Last Christmas was actually the first time we even got Isaiah something. Holidays are just made into such a joke now you know. I bet most kids don't even really know why we have Easter. Or at least I should say most kids who don't go to church. I really doubt that they do. They just think it's about some stupid fake bunny who brings eggs and toys to their house in a basket for no apparent reason. Crazy huh? I really can't stand how Easter is portrayed. James and I have never given Isaiah an Easter basket, and we don't plan to. I am not going to have him thinking that a giant pink bunny brings him candy for the heck of it. I want him to understand the real meaning of it all. And hey, if he wants some candy, that's cool, we will go to the store like we would any other time, and get a candy bar, and enjoy it as a snack. lol Wow, where did all of that come from tonight huh? This is like the second day of me just rambling on about something that is simply random. Oh, I guess I should throw it out there, just because I don't want any one to say, "Oh, so she will let him believe in Santa Clause, but not the Easter Bunny?," No...we are not going to tell Isaiah or Evelyn that there is a Santa, or a tooth fairy, or any other make believe character that we will have to lie to him about and then later tell him is fake. This is of course simply a choice that we are making for our kids...that's all, I don't think it is bad for others to tell there kids that these characters are out there. We just are not doing it for ours. That's all. A lot of people get mad at us though when they find out. They act like we are ruining their childhood. Isn't that ridiculous? As if those things define your childhood. They certainly didn't mine. Anyway...I just want to make it clear...very clear...I do not think it is bad if you do like your kids to believe in these things, I just don't want my kids to. It's just a choice, an opinion. Strictly my own. I just don't want anyone out there to take it the wrong way and get all mad at me. That's not why I wrote that down after all. Ok, I am done with that now...praise God right? lol

So other than the Halloween disappointment, the say was good. Hectic at some point, but I got over it quickly, cleaned up the house pretty good, and tried my very best to not eat too much candy. I did not succeed. oh well, there is 5 more pounds I guess.

I received a really great long letter from Gina Wardlaw yesterday. It was so good to hear from her. Incase you are wondering, they are doing good. I assume you haven't forgotten them just yet. lol Living it up in Hawaii, getting plenty of sun I am sure. She has even visited my cousin who also lives there several times. So that was cool to hear. She said they are coming down to visit on December 14th. I can't wait to see them. Anyway, I better end this now. I think I just might go to bed early tonight. We'll see. lol Nite.

I am just going to jump right into it. Today in Sunday school class a favorite topic of mine was discussed. Love. One of the most important things in this world. The whole thing was about love in this culture, about how God commands us all to love one another, and the different ways people see love. I brought up the fact that it can be hard to actually love everyone. I admitted that I personally do not love everyone. I gave an example of a family member that I can say I not only do not like, but for sure do not love. I think however that everyone, or mostly everyone, took that to mean that I have a hard time loving people who are "bad people, or mean, or somehow unlikable". Well, I wanted to clarify and maybe explain my dilemma a little bit better. After all, maybe one of you are experiencing the same thing, and can shed some light on it for me.

So, here it is. For me, love is a feeling. I know I love James because I have felt it before. I don't feel it everyday, and don't expect to either, that's not what being "in love" is about, but I have felt it, numerous times, so I know I love him. I have felt my love for my children, for my mom and my dad, for my close friends, for my grand parents. Having had this feeling at some point lets me know that I love them. Now, there can be a perfectly nice person, who is great to be around, is my friend even, but, I will not be able to say in all honesty that I love that person if I have not felt it. I just can't do that. It feels like a lie. I have no such feelings for them. I might care about that person a lot, I might even cry if they died, but I don't feel any love toward them.

I know what you are saying...love is not a feeling. Well, I am sure that is the case for many people, but I am here to tell you that sadly, it is not the case for me. I wish this was not the case. Try to imagine for a second that you are me. It really is sad that I have people in my family, in my life, that I know I should love, but don't. I know this is wrong. I know what God commands. But it is not as simple as saying, "Today I am going to love everyone." And yes, I also know the Bible says we have to "learn" to love one another. Yep...I have been trying that. There is this one guy I know, nicest guy around probably, helpful to others, devoted, good guy...but one aspect of his personality drives me insane, and so I find my self not liking him very much. I have prayed about it, I have asked God numerous times to help me get past that, to help me see only the good in him. Just hasn't happened yet. I mean how do you change how you see things in life? How do you make your brain work in such a way that you start feeling affection, emotion for people you don't really know?

I can remember when I used to work at different places, and I would become friends with some of my co-workers. Once in a while one of them, after a deep conversation would say, "I love you." You know how uncomfortable a feeling that is? I mean can you imagine? It's sad. Generally, you just gotta hug that person, or say something like, "OH, your so sweet." They usually won't notice you didn't say it back. I don't want to be a liar. I don't want to say something I don't feel. Does any of this make sense?? Or am I just rambling on pointlessly? I don't know, any of you got any advice? I suppose that I could use it. I don't know how I got to the point of viewing love this way. I can not think of a single reason for it. Love has just always been something that you feel. If I know that I have felt it, then I know that it is there.

Today Tom Lane said that there will be times in a marriage when you think you don't love your spouse, or even worse, you say you don't. (I think that's how he said it) You know, I think that is true for some marriages, maybe even lots. But you know, I don't think you can say that it will happen for all of them. That is an absolute. You can not say that in every marriage that will happen. I think some marriages, and I will go as far as to say mine, can go throughout life with respect, knowing how to handle anger, hurt feelings, knowing what love really is, and knowing that life isn't always great. How many people in this world who are married, or in a relationship, can say that they have never had a fight? That they have never yelled at their partner? I can say that. Nine years...and we never have. Why? We made the decision not to. Simple as that. We want to be an example to our children for how to handle problems. We talk them out...we don't yell. Do we get mad, sure we do. I get mad, I get frustrated, I get annoyed. But I don't yell about it. I tell James about it. "James, you're bugging me, knock it off." It's that simple. And you know hat he says? "Ok, sorry." Respect. We have a friendship.

Oh my gosh look what I have done. I have gone off on a completely different topic. How did that even happen? You know I guess when you are talking (or writing) about something you are passionate about you just keep going and going and don't always realize how far you have gone. I tend to do that and sometimes in the process it comes off as kind of impersonal. I hope that wasn't the case here. I have written so much. My goodness. Nice to know that when I have a topic though that I can get this done fast. Took me 23 minutes to think and type this all out. Hope it all came out good. I will have James read it over, see if I even made any sense. lol

Ok, James say's that my thoughts are unorganized. He is most likely right. I felt unorganized while typing it all out. But, he also said that you could tell it was that way because I was writing about something that is important to me. So there you have it I guess. lol Ugh, I am a nerd. Ok, I better go now...I have some stuff to do. Hope I came off as at least semi logical. lol Bye.

It is so nice having Isaiah gone still. I got to sleep in until almost 10am today because Evelyn was just laying in her crib enjoying herself. So, we got to sleep in very late. It was incredibly nice. I haven't done that since before Isaiah was born. Today was a good day though. Slept in, made breakfast for me and James, took a bunch of stuff to the thrift store, went to the grocery store, and then went with my mom to Costco. After that, I made spaghetti for dinner, and now James is making chocolate chip cookies, (we will be bringing some to Sunday school) and I have been shampooing the carpets. I did Isaiah's room for the first time in like 4 years. It looks so much better now, and so does the hallway and living room. Although I haven't done in front of the couch's yet, I will do that tomorrow.

Oh, can I just mention that it is ridiculous how picky the Good Will is. I tried to give them a bunch of stuff today but they wouldn't accept hardly any of it because it was all too big to fit in their boxes they put them in. What the heck? I mean shouldn't they be glad that I am trying to donate huge beautiful paintings that people can enjoy, or a really nice highchair? But no, they don't accept those items. That's why it all went to the Thrift Store. That just really bugged me.

I watched the movie Fever Pitch. I love Drew Barrymore, she is not only beautiful but smart, and funny. At least she seems like it in interviews and stuff. Generally, all her movies are awesome...but this one was just ok. I love her in 50 First Dates, and in EverAfter. Did I mention yesterday that I didn't even get to have my eye doctor appt. I went there, and they told me that my appt is for November 4th. That is so stupid. When I called on Wednesday I said that I wanted an appointment for this Friday, and she said, "Ok, this Friday at 9:45am." THIS FRIDAY!! Doesn't that generally mean the Friday that is coming up? You would think so, but no, evidently it means the Friday after. So, now I am stuck with contact lens that don't work for another week. I really feel uncomfortable driving with my eyes like this. I don't like not being able to see properly while on the road. I have been having James drive around for me when we are going somewhere together.

So, tomorrow is the combined service at church. We are having communion during it. I really like having communion and I am so glad that they decided to do it more often then they used to. After that we will go to my grandma's house as usual and then we are going to James' mom and dad's house to pick up Isaiah. We are staying there for dinner too. So, we will end up being gone all day long. Hopefully nobody will call to see the house. I doubt it though, no body has come to see it in over almost 2 weeks. You know, I suppose that it is very possible that it could take months to sell this place. Anyway, today just feels like a very boring and stupid day. I feel like everything I am writing is pointless and really I am most likely wasting your time. So, I will go, and hopefully have something better to write in the morning. Nite.

What would you say if I said that God just gave us almost $300.00 out of nowhere? Really...would you believe me? Well, I am one of those people who thinks that God does stuff like that, and he just did. I kid you not when I say that almost $300.00 magically appeared in our checking account. We have checked all our adding, everything is where it should be, everything is in except one small check, yet the bank says we still have a lot more money than we think we do. Praise God. I am all for surprises. I love getting gifts like that, especially when I know God played a big role in that. It's the kind of thing that brings a smile to my face. God takes care of his children people. He does. Today I was a little bit concerned because I thought we might not have enough money to last until November 7th, but now we do, now we do! Praise God!!

So, are you all enjoying the Daily Devotional I have on here now? I like it, hopefully you do too. Incase you didn't know about it, it is right above the Quote of the Day. Just give it a click.

Isaiah is gone. He is staying the night at James' parents house. They came to get him and took us all out to dinner. It was really nice of them and I had a good time. We will go pick him up after church on Sunday. I can't wait to hear about if he had a good time or not at Disney on Ice. I bet he will.

James is behind me on our bed on his computer. He just sent me an instant message that almost put a tear in my eye. I thought that I would show you...

James Moore: just interrupting your typing to say i like just watching you sometimes. when you dont know i'm doing it. watching you holding evelyn, or just cleaning the house. you make me so happy. sometimes it just hits me out of nowhere how perfect we are for each other. our children are so lucky to have you for a mom. and i'm the luckiest guy to have you for a wife.

How sweet is that? I think that we are both pretty lucky. I have a man who respects me...really respects me. Who doesn't put me down, who tells me he loves me, and shows it. I have a man who looks at me with longing eyes still even after 9 years together. I have this man...who really truly wants to be with me, just me, forever. How lucky am I? Or should I say: How wonderful to be blessed by God with the wonderful family that I have. When I partnered up with James, life just became spectacular. Just one more thing to praise God about. You know it's funny that he would say that, because I do the same thing, I will just look at him sometimes, when he is playing with Isaiah, or holding Evelyn making funny faces at her. He is such a great dad...and I love him more than I can even describe. It's like an overflow in my heart. That's what it feels like when I think of him. There is just so much emotion, that it swells up and flows out of me in tears. I really can't imagine him not being here. I don't even know where I would be.

On another note, and a completely different topic all together. Yesterday, and in to the night, our dog Dusty had the worst gas EVER!!!! I am not kidding. She was killing us. Driving us from rooms. I was wishing for a gas mask. I know it's not her fault, but we had to kick her out of the house, it's impossible to live with that.

Anyway, I think that is enough. I plan on going to sleep very soon. Hopefully. I always say that though, so who knows. Anyway, talk to you all tomorrow. Bye.

Tomorrow is my eye doctor appt. I have to be there at 9:45am. I hate having to get up in the morning and try to get things done in a hurry so I can get out of the house. It's annoying. But, at least tomorrow night will be relaxing. Isaiah is going to stay the night at my mother in laws house because he is going to see Disney on Ice Saturday. I think that he will have a blast. I wish that I had some money to give him to buy something, but he won't care anyway. Today was pretty lame in regards to excitement. Honestly there is just nothing new to report. But, I did get something in an email that I wanted to share with you women out there. I think you'll get a kick out of it. Lorenda sent it to me. So, I will end this entry with it, and chat with you all tomorrow. Bye.

You may have heard "the rules" from the female side. Now here are the rules from the male side. These are our rules! Please note... these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE!

1. Learn to work the toilet seat You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down. We need it up, you need it down. You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the tides. Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport. And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1.. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want. Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument. In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't expect us to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.
Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something or tell us how you want it done. Not both. If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during commercials

1. Christopher Columbus did not need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings. Peach, for example, is a fruit, not a color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We have NO Idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say nothing,"
we will act like nothing's wrong. We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1 If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is fine ... Really.

1. Don't ask us what we're thinking about unless you are prepared to discuss such topics as sports, the weather, or hunting.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes

1. I am in shape. Round is a shape.

1.. Thank you for reading this. Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight; but did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

I don't know about you guys but I thought those were so accurate and simply hilarious. I hope you thought so too. Nite.

So, once again I am sitting here doing this way too late. I could have started earlier in all honesty. But James and I were laying on the bed talking for about 40 minutes or so. He had some interesting things happen at work today that could affect us in a big way, I won't say anything about it for now...it's all a bunch of maybes and what if's. Actually, my plan is to pretend that he did not even mention any of it at all, so I don't worry my self into more stress, like I usually do. And, since I brought up stress, let me just say that today was full of it. Evelyn was having a bad day. I mean a bad day. If she wasn't being held or being played with she would end up crying. I never knew what was wrong with her. I would try changing her diaper, I would try feeding her, and naps weren't working either, she would only end up taking short 30 minute naps, nothing that really helped her. She kind of did this yesterday too. It made it hard on me today. When she was sleeping, Isaiah would need something or other. And tonight for bed time he was having a very hard time going to sleep. He kept finding something to get out of bed about. It was always "I want another blanket, I want mama, I want James, I want doggy." It wasn't until after 11pm that he finally stayed in his bed.

I am watching the Amityville Horror movie. The remake. It reminds me a lot of The Shining. But I will be honest with you, it is a lot more scary than that one, It is freaking me out. I mean the movie is seriously unnerving. I almost want to turn the movie off, I don't want to know what happens next. Especially since I am assuming that right now the guy is going to kill his dog. Yep, he just did it, it can only get worse from here. I know it is going to be the family soon. Ugh, I really don't like this movie. Oh no, they priest is going to die. Yep, I am sure of it. I am getting the hebbie gebbies. (Is that how you spell that?)

Anyway, so since I was having a rather frustrating day with the kids, I decided to ask Lorenda is she would baby-sit while I went to the bible study at the Green's house. It was so much better for me to be there without the kids. I really liked being able to listen to everything that was going on. (The movie just ended, oh my goodness, that was quite possibly one of the scariest movies I have ever seen.) Of course, I asked James to pick up the kids on his way home. Well, when I got home he said they had just gotten there. I thought that was kind of strange, he should have been home much earlier than that. Well, turns out that he had a blow out on the free way. His tire is totally ripped open. Luckily he didn't get in an accident or anything, I always worry about him driving as far as he does. Especially since he has fallen asleep at the wheel once before and crashed into the side rail of one of the bridges. That was scary too. Anyway, I am going to go. It is 1:30am. I should go to sleep.

I am watching the show Close To Home. And the lady on here who killed her husband is claiming that God told her to do it. In reality, the fact is that she is angry, and bitter that her husband wanted to cheat on her and did cheat on her. And, was leaving her. But of course it is always convenient to say that God "told me to do it". Whatever.

Today was rather slow and boring. Lots of, "Mama! Mama!" all day long. Then Evelyn was having cranky problems all day, she didn't know what the heck she wanted. She was acting hungry, but not hungry, crying, but not sleepy, who knows what the heck she wanted. All I know is that by 7:40pm she was rubbing her eyes and I was more than happy to accommodate her by putting her to bed early. Although I am sure that I will be feeding her at some point in the wee hours of the night because she was also spitting up a lot of her last bottle. So, I am going to guess about 2am for that.

Anyway, I guess we are having a pest inspection on the house this Thursday just to get it over with. This way I won't have to worry about having it done later when we accept someone's offer on this house. Should probably get the roof certification done soon too. I hate having to worry about stuff at the last minute. Of course this is all assuming that we can even get this house sold. I swear that I am really getting worried. I know that I shouldn't. I know that whatever God has planned is for the best. But still, I want that particular house you know. It is frustrating. I have been praying though that God will bring the right family to our house and that they will love it as much as we do. If you find the time, maybe you could ask God for the same thing for us.

James is so nice, he is going to go to the store for me and buy a few things. My contact lenses have not been working right. When they are in I still can't see as good as I should. I can't read road signs that I know I used to be able to read. And I have been getting headaches which I think is from my eyes straining to see. It is making me feel nervous when I drive. I can't read things that are 20 feet away from me and are printed fairly big. That is a bad thing. So I need to call the eye doctor tomorrow and get it checked out. I have been saying that though all week, and I keep on putting it off. I always say I will do it later, but never do.

Anyway...so my friend Tiffany is toying with the idea of moving to Texas. Austin Texas to be exact. I guess it is comforting to know that I am not the only one moving far a way. Our mutual good friend Jessica would be the only one left here. Tiffany told me though that she is thinking about moving to Tennessee where most of her family lives. Her parents are only here still for her. They really want to move there too. So I guess that would all just depend on if the father's of her children would cooperate with that and "allow" her to take the kids that far a way.

I am listening to the yahoo music station that they have. I set it to Today's Hits...thinking that I would have some pretty good stuff to listen to. Well, I haven't listened to any hip hop or r&b in quite a while. Evidently though it is just going down the drain, because one of the songs I heard might as well been titled "Slut". I mean really, it was bad, stupid, and pointless. So I decided to just sign in and create my own station with the types of songs that I like. Lots of hard rock, classic rock, and some rap that I happen to like. Mostly Eminem. I know, not every body likes him. But I think he is good and also utterly hilarious. Half the stuff that he says I just take as crude jokes, which is how I think he most of the time means it. And I love crude jokes anyway. They make me laugh. And I love to laugh, so there you go I guess.

You know what band is just awesome? Red Hot Chilli Peppers. They are great. They have had about 7 or 8 albums I think, and I love them all. And I think that their lead singer, Anthony, is gorgeous...simply gorgeous.

But, enough of that, I am sure that you are not interested in the music that I listen to. So, I will end this and get to my dancing. I am thinking about buying some 5 pound hand weights to use while I do it too, that might help me.

Well, the dance pads that we bought for our game were not the cheapest ones, but they were not the best ones either. So, that might be why they are not working like they are supposed to be when it comes to hitting the back "button". (It's not really a button, but I can't think of anything else to call it.) So anyway, James is going to send them back and replace them with the really good metal ones. Ours are the thick padded ones. This will of course cost us quite a bit extra. Like $100.00 extra each. But, considering that this is like my gym membership, I am kind of saving money in the long run. Especially since I plan on doing this for a long time.

Hopefully he (James) will take care of this soon, that way I can get back to doing my workout and sweating up a storm. Which is what it feels like.

Anyway...today I had to go pick up Lorenda's kids from school. Ethan's pre-school is actually at the First Baptist Church over on Mills Avenue. It was built this year I think. While I was there I thought that I might as well look inside their sanctuary and see how it looks. It was dark in there, but not so dark that I couldn't see. It was beautiful in there. I really liked it. And big too. I like the idea that they have a preschool. I bet that we could do that at our church. I mean we have a great looking nursery, with a kitchen, bathroom, and lots of space. I bet that would be something we could do. Or...even do a daycare! That would also be a good way bring people into the church. Especially people with young kids, since they are the future and all. Of course I have no idea if that is even possible, it was just a random idea that suddenly popped in my head. But, I do think it's a good idea.

You know, in Sunday school this last week Pastor Rob mentioned that "we all know that Eva hates a lot of things." Well, here is one more thing that you can add to the list. I hate all of the stupid commercials for the election. They are driving me nuts. You end up seeing the same exact commercial 4 times in 30 minutes. It is nuts. UGH....here is another one. I don't need to see the same thing 10 times in one day. I don't. And I am so sick of it. I just want this whole thing to be over already.

I can't believe that I forgot to tell you something that happened yesterday. It could very well be classified as Breaking News!! During the yard sale that we had James was out there cleaning the garage out, and he was looking into some of the containers that we have full of...his old video games. Well, he did the unthinkable. He decided to sell them all! That's right people, this is not a drill. It's the real thing. He sold his Sega Genesis and all the games, he sold the Sega Saturn and all it's games. And the only one he now has left is the Sega Dreamcast which is the last console that Sega made. He has almost 90 games for that one. Craziness.

I had a good nights sleep last night. And so did James. Which is why I don't understand why he woke up so tired this morning. It ended up just being bad for me because while sitting in church next to him, I got tired just looking at him. I hate it when that happens because then I am stuck trying desperately to keep my eyes open. Luckily it was a good sermon, so that always helps.

Lorenda and her husband, and some of his friends, came to get the Air Hockey table today. Also the punching bag, and futon. I am so glad to have that air hockey table gone now. It makes that room look a lot bigger and that is always good when people come see your house. My mom and dad also decided to lower the price on their house. Of course that will probably mean that they won't get much back, but that is ok, because we can pay for their furniture. I really just want them to do everything possible to sell their house, I don't want us to have to move first, and in doing that be taking all their stuff too and leaving them with nothing. That would happen because we have to ship all our belongings at once. So they would end up being left with practically nothing. Only the stuff that they would be taking with them on the train. So, it is pretty important that they move when we do. Or at least sell their house before us, and then stay at my grandma's place. You know, I just really want everything to go smoothly.

Tonight I made dinner (enchiladas) for James best friend Kevin. We had a good time and watched a movie. When he was getting ready to leave he decided to use the bathroom first. James decided that it would be really funny to put once of Evelyn's dirty diapers (only number 1 in it, so don't worry.) in the pocket of his jacket as a joke. Kevin doesn't like anything to do with that stuff. About 40 minutes later he called us. He said it was so gross to him. He actually threw up. lol You know, that is the kind of stuff that is priceless. The only nice thing is that he thought it was pretty funny too. That's what great about best friends, they can take a joke like that and laugh.

Tomorrow I have to go to Costco and buy more printer ink. We were supposed to print up the paper work for the home loan, but our printer ran out of ink. So, I will go there and get that, and also pick up a few other things. I need to buy some more chicken patties. The ones they have there are addictive. I would have one for all three meals if I could. Or I should say if it was healthy. Obviously I could.

I am so glad that the people in Florida are leaving. At least for the most part. Some people of course always try to ride it out. It is crazy how many hurricanes there have been this year. I can't recall ever hearing of so many before in my whole life. It really makes me glad that I don't live over there. I don't understand why you would want to live somewhere like that, someplace that these kinds of natural disasters happen. I am glad that according to our realtor there is nothing like that in Michigan. No tornados really, no earthquakes, no hurricanes. Praise the Lord.

There is a cop in Rio Vista in the news right now that was just killed. He was 26 years old and was just married 3 weeks ago. A seventeen your old driving the car that hit him was of course, not hurt badly in the accident. Isn't that always the case? Drives me crazy. It's the same with drunk drivers...they get in accidents, kill some one, and they live. The only comfort is that they have to live with that forever. Anyway, I better go and start cleaning up the house in the living room and kitchen. Just incase some one calls tomorrow to come see the house. I would hate to be caught of guard and have to try to clean up quickly. So...I will talk to you tomorrow. Oh, are you enjoying the daily devotion section I have now? If you have any other ideas of what you might like to see on this page please let me know. Your thoughts are greatly appreciated. ecm1980@comcast.net

I am watching the movie Batman Begins. It is a good movie. I saw it in the theatre with my dad, but I planned on buying it of course. It is excellent. Of course, I still think that Michael Keaton is the best Batman. But I think that this guy did a really good job too. I thought that when he was Batman, in the costume you know, that he changed his voice a little too much. Made it too deep. But, I give it 4 stars non the less.

So we had another yard sale today. I have been selling stuff really cheap, but we still made well over a hundred dollars. So we went out to dinner tonight at a restaurant called Lodi Beer Company. It was so nice inside. Beautiful really...and there was good fast service along with good food. I really enjoyed it and I think that we will go again. But, there is other good news...we talked to our loan officer in Michigan...turns out that since this house is cheaper the 20% that we would be putting down is less than we initially thought. We were planning on putting $80,000 down, but it turns out we only need to out down $62,000. So, that means that we will end up with a lot more extra money than we thought...which means...that we can afford to lower the price of the house even more. So today we talked to our realtor and made the decision to lower the price again. We put it at $359,000. I am so excited about being able to do that because that is a lot cheaper than the other houses around us. So....hopefully it will sell a lot faster. I am really hoping that we will even get some people wanting to come see it tomorrow if the new price gets posted tonight. I am so excited. I have been wanting to lower the price more for a while now, but we didn't think that we could. It would be nice to be able to get up there before Christmas, it would be a nice present. Plus we could buy some other great gifts while we are at it. lol

Anyway, so Lorenda and her husband are going to come pick up the stuff they are buying from us tomorrow. The air hockey table, futon, and a punching bag. I am excited about getting rid of the air hockey table. I have wanted that thing gone for a long time. It just looks stupid in our family room you know.

The movie is almost over, and Isaiah is laying against me and he is asleep. I love it when kids fall asleep on their parents. They are so very peaceful, perfect. And of course they are willing to do almost anything you tell them because they are too tired to really care. Or it could be that they have complete trust in their parents at this age. They never doubt that you will catch them when they fall, or that you will protect them from any and all harm. Or that a moms kiss can make a boo boo ok again. Kids are truly God's most perfect creation. At least I think so. Nothing is better in this life. A child's laughter, their smile, that is the stuff that makes me happy.

Anyway...I better go, time to dance! Wow do I feel like an idiot saying that. lol. But hey, even if I don't lose weight, it sure is getting my heart going and helping my stamina. And that is always a good thing. Nite people, see you in the morning at church.

So, tonight I went to this little party where there is someone selling things and you get to sit there and listen to them talk about their product, usually cool things that you want to buy but never do. This party was for a product called Once Upon A Family. If you want to check out the website click on this link. www.onceuponafamily.net Anyway, basically, it was a bunch of really great ideas, but stuff that I could do myself or buy for cheaper at Target. I don't want to pay for someone's great idea and fancy decorated boxes and albums. Not to mention a lot of the ideas that they had were things that I already do. Putting keepsakes away somewhere to give to your kids when they are older, writing them letters, keeping a journal of sorts. Honestly I felt like I could have been the host for this thing since I do all the same stuff. And if you do it my way it's cheaper. A lot of the stuff was focused around creating family traditions for your kids, and teaching them important values. I don't know, I guess you could say that I just wasn't that impressed. But still, I suppose that it would be good for someone who does not have the time to think this stuff up and does like pretty stationary.

But, another thing that happened tonight was that while I was driving this truck gets behind me, a truck that someone has obviously raised up higher and they have the big tires, and very very bright head lights. Well of course this jerk is behind me...not tailgating, but just behind me. That doesn't matter though, because since his truck is up higher, and his lights are insanely bright, I am practically being blinded. Now, most people would just do that thing to their rear view mirror so that the lights aren't as bright. But you see, I always feel like people with really bright lights are somehow trying to intimidate me. I feel like it is my duty to leave my mirror as it is, and not back down. It would be showing weakness. I know that this is silly, but that is just how it always plays out in my head. So, I stayed where I was and didn't move my mirror, and eventually that person took an exit. Thank goodness.

Anyway, I am determined tomorrow for James to start cleaning out the garage, and that includes putting stuff out for sale and packing things up. I want that area to get done because it always seems like garages are one of the "rooms" that you save till last, and they take the longest. So with any luck James will wake up early tomorrow and get a start on the day. I hope.

We talked to our realtor briefly today and he said that he had a call from some guy who said he wanted to buy our house and wondered if we would accept $340,000. James laughed. James did however tell our realtor, Jeff Fontana, to call the guy back and see if he could get him to offer a more reasonable price. After all, we have it priced at $369,950 right now, which is the exact same as some others houses in our neighborhood. So I know we are not asking too much. That guy must have had a few too many drinks or something to even think that we would be that desperate.

Anyway, my day was good though, although I am feeling tired. I am going to go do my dance exercising after I am done with this, shower, and then go to bed. I am going to try for a 12:30am bed time. We'll see.
I am so tired of being tired. lol I would just love to have a maid for like a week, someone who would just stay here all day with me and keep things clean, and then when the kids went to bed, she would leave, I would do my dance thing, write this out, and then be in bed by say....10:30pm??? Sounds good huh? In my dreams I guess. lol Bye.

I am going to try to get this done while I am watching CSI so that way I can attempt to go to bed semi early tonight. It is hard to do though because I am so interested in what is happening, and it is one of those shows that you really do need to watch. Isaiah had a good time with James today. He was really good and they went out to lunch together and had a nice father son work day. Isaiah even called me twice to say hello. I think that he enjoyed spending the whole day with him. Evelyn was really good today for me too. And then my mom came at about 3:30pm and she took Evelyn to her house for a few hours so that way I could relax. It was nice and I actually got quite a few things done in the house. You know ugh, it's now quarter till 9pm and I am only this far in this journal. I am never going to finish this thing. CSI is really good though. Tonight's episode just proves that you can never really know what people are like behind closed doors. You might think that someone is the greatest person ever...or you might think that they would never ever be into some illegal activity, and then, as on this show, you find out that they are growing mass amounts of marijuana. One more reason why I will not ever put my child in a day care. It is practically impossible to simply trust someone you have just met. Not to mention trust someone who you have just met with your kids. I mean you can never really know for sure what they are doing when you are not there. You just can't be sure.

LOL...I was just telling James how incredibly hot the guy from the TV show Prison Break is. Wow he is gorgeous. I just love guys who look all tough and mean. Anyway the funny thing was that when I showed James the picture of him he said that the guy looked constipated. lol He just can't admit it is all. lol

James' best friend Kevin was doing some minor ranting today to James about why we shouldn't move a way. He was giving a ton of reasons, and James kept on disproving those reasons. Then of course there was the simple thing of him saying that we can't move because he will be mad. I can tell it is going to be especially hard on him. I am going to have a really hard time leaving Lorenda. Especially since right now she is going through a lot of hard emotional things. I want to be there for her.

You know what? I am incredibly saddened by the news today that a woman in San Francisco threw her three kids over the bay bridge. It is easy to say to myself that the mother deserves to rot in jail. But I know that the right thing to do would be to pray for her. It really is true that doing the right thing can be hard. My general thought about her is she should be sent a way, but I know that I need to think of what God would have me do. So, I will say this. I will pray for God to work in her and heal her schizophrenia so that she can realize what she did and ask for forgiveness. And I just hope that she can forgive herself. But I doubt it, I don't think any mother could. I could not imagine doing that. I don't understand how a person could take their own kids and toss them over the bridge like that. Children, all children, deserve the very best. The very best.

Well, I should go now. It is getting late and I have stuff to do still. Tomorrow will hopefully be as relaxing as today was, but I doubt it.

13 Proper Reactions to Suffering

10/19/05
10:29pm

Today I had to go to FedEx some money to our realtor because our offer on that house over there was accepted. They needed something called "earnest money". Kind of like proof that I am really committed to buying the house. We are really excited about it. I am so glad that the owners liked our offer and now we get to have this chance at owning this beautiful home. Of course, we still have to sell our house. That is a big deal. If our house just doesn't sell, then we can't move. And if we can't move, we can't buy that house. So, I have been praying that God will bring a wonderful family into our house very soon.

In other news though I attended the bible study at the Greene's house tonight. I was anxious to go because Doug Shepherd was going to be teaching and I wanted to see how I enjoyed that. He did a great job. Once the kids all got settled, I was able to actually sit and listen to everything and really enjoyed it. Isaiah was very good, and so was Evelyn. It was a nice change. Usually I am constantly up and down when I am there.

I took Isaiah to Some Place Fun today. We had a good time. I actually got to go in the play bouncers with him and chase him around. I had a good time. I want to treasure those moments with him as much as possible. They just aren't going to last you know. They really do grown up so fast. I mean in a week and a half Evelyn will already be 5 months old. That is insane. Where does the time go? And why is it in such a hurry? lol I wish that I could just put a pause on life sometimes and just sit there and stare at certain moments that are special to me. Maybe take a picture.

I think it would be so cool if it was possible to travel back in time just as an observer. I would love to watch different parts of my life and see if I remembered them the same way they happened, or just see certain people again. Or even to just get a glimpse of that cute guy I wish I had kissed. lol It would be fun. We (James and I) are supposed to do that dance game again tonight. I am trying to write this fast so I won't be up late again. I feel like even when I do get "enough" sleep though that I am still exhausted in the morning. I think that I just need a whole week of extra sleep. The nice thing is that tomorrow morning Isaiah is going with James to work. Kind of a father son day. So during Evelyn's naps I will get to also. Oh, no I won't, I forgot that I am going to be baby sitting Lorenda's kids tomorrow. Well, maybe some other time huh. Anyway...I better go. Gotta get all sweaty and stinky. But hey, at least I am learning to dance, sort of.

Wow, I am starting this thing before midnight for once, barely. lol Oh well. So I still have a long night a head of me. But that is because I had to go to the grocery store, that took an hour, then I came home, put them all away, waited for James to quit his game, then we did our "workout" with the dance game I got. I just finished that. Oh my gosh is that ever a hard work out. I am so gross and sweaty feeling. And I only did it for maybe 20 minutes max. Crazy how that thing gets your heart moving. I think that if I can just manage to eat a little bit better, and do that thing 5 nights a week, that I will be able to lose some significant weight. Man my foot hurts bad though right now. Yep I am still having that pain, and no I have not been taking my medicine like I am supposed to, I keep forgetting. It hurts really bad right now too, and it isn't just from the workout. Today I decided to hang out with Isaiah and have some fun. SO we went to Mickey Grove Park. We got there around 1:30pm I think and we first went to this new park for kids that they have in there. It was so cool. The slides are about 30 feet high I think. And they had all kinds of different park equipment that I have never seen before. It was really fun. There was a little boy there that Isaiah became quick friends with, and later we even saw them in the zoo, and so we all walked together and the kids ran amok. It was really good though to see Isaiah so good with a kid that he just met. It makes me feel hopeful that when he starts school he will be able to make friends quickly. Of course, I can't even send him to school until he learns how to talk better. And who knows how long that will be.

You know it is too bad that the zoo doesn't have more money. I would love to see them really fix the place up and get more animals. When I was little I remember they had a polar bear. But that is gone now and in it's place is a big cat of sorts. But they do have the mountain lions, and that is cool. And everyone loves the sea lions. They are the best part. Today they were having their swimming structure cleaned, and so all the water was out and the men who work there where down there with the sea lions washing everything out. One of the guys told me that it takes 6 hours to fill it back up.

Did I tell you guys that we did end up making a bid on that house on Endicott street? Well we did, and they made a counter offer today, and so we made one right back and they have 48 hours to respond. Dear God I hope that our house sells. I am such a worry wart. James isn't worried at all. But then again he never is. If you wanna see the inside of the house click on this link.
www.clickannarbor.com
And if you want to see pictures of the outside of the house click on this link.
http://www.aaabor.com/property_display.cfm?mls_id=2509336
I think that it is beautiful. And the basement is huge Alicia said. Actually she said that the whole house is big in all the rooms. I really hope that we get it. Please do me a favor and pray that the right person finds our house. I want someone to love it just as much as I do. I know that it is just a house, but I do want someone who will take care of it to have it. Anyway. So I guess I better go. I need to clean up some stuff in the kitchen. And I am sure that a shower wouldn't hurt either. lol Bye.

Ok, so I just want to say that I really think that my journal here is looking pretty good. I think that there is a good amount of stuff to look at, and I think that is important. I like looking at pictures, and having other little areas to go read if I want to. Hopefully you do too. If there is anything else that you think might be fun to have on here please let me know. After all, this is all for your enjoyment.

Guess what? My dance game came today! About time too, I was really getting annoyed. James and I hooked it up when the kids were in bed. (Actually he set it all up himself...lol) We put the game in and got started. Wow is it hard. I would like to say that once you get the hang of it it isn't that hard. But I can't say that at all. The truth is that although you feel more comfortable after a little bit, it is still very very hard. Not to mention the fact that it is a major workout, just on the beginners level. They even have a work out section on there where you get to put in your weight, and it monitors your calories you burn, how far you have gone in miles, everything. It is so cool. It would be great to try to do this 5 days a week I think. Oh my gosh, just watching the Difficult level scares me. It looks so hard that I am sure of I tried it I would have nightmares. One thing is for sure though, this is like doing aerobics, I was sweating. ALOT!
If you can afford to buy the stuff needed to play this "game" I would do it, the exercise is worth it.

I have decided that I really like cole slaw. I am really excited about the different foods that I am eating, and the exercise that I will be starting. Changing habits is a very hard thing. Anyway, that's all for me. For now at least. Bye. Bed time.

Quick Update: There are some new pictures to the right and down, the one of the flowers is a painting that my mother in law just finished. Isn't it beautiful?

So I am sitting in Sunday school class and Tom Lane our teacher starts talking about how he has been praying for James and I and the move to Michigan. And he says that he doesn't want us to go but that it is important to realize that God has a plan for us up there. It was getting all sad and depressing. Then we all prayed to end the class, and by the end of that I was crying. It is so sad. I don't want another teacher! I don't want another church! I like it all just the way it is. I don't like change.!!!
But, it is a part of life and I can't avoid it. Just got to deal with it. I gave Tom a huge hug though after ward and cried on his shoulder for a bit. It was nice to be able to tell him with just the emotion I was having what a important person he is in my life. I have learned so by being in his class.
Strangely even more than I have learned from church service. But I suppose that is likely to happen in a small group where you can ask questions and feel involved. I wish that happened in the actual church service too. Like maybe if Pastor Rob kept a bag of candy up at the pulpit and he could ask the congregation to turn to a certain verse, and whoever raised there hand first that they had it would have to read it and then they got a candy. Preferably 3 Musketeers, Milky Way, M&M's, Milk Duds, Rollo's, and Snickers for the peanut lovers. Of course, I only mention that at the slight chance that he tries that idea out. lol

Tiffany came over today to start the project for her dad. She got here a little bit before 2pm, and she left around 8:30pm. It took that whole time to get it done. But it looks really nice. I think that everyone will be very impressed. I also just liked hanging out here with her though and getting to chat. And the cool thing was that her husband had the kids, so it wasn't like there was a ton of chaos with 4 kids here.

When James and I got in the car today after church to come home he was telling me that he always ends up reading the bible all through the sermon. I asked why that was and he said that every time Pastor Rob says to turn to a certain book and verse, that he always reads the whole chapter instead, then, he usual has a question form in his head about what he just read, so then he has to go look it up. So he ends up reading a whole bunch more. He said that he must have read through about 4 chapters from just Exodus. I thought that was kind of funny because I will usually read through more of the verse than asked, but I don't go and read the whole chapter. Then I miss the sermon. But I suppose that there is a reason for everything, and God is probably speaking to James in those moments whether he knows it or not.

Did you notice the newest feature I have added? Right above the Quote of the Day I have a Daily Devotional. My Great Grandma Nora Wright gave it to me. I found the book in one of the rooms and asked about it. Turns out that it was my Great Grandpa Harold Wright's. So, she said that I could have it, and I thought that it would be perfect for this webpage. After all, it's nice to learn something new everyday. And this book is one of those that has a devotional for every day of the year.

Also, I am going to start that other thing that I had mentioned previously. 13 Proper Reactions to Suffering. I think that is a very important thing. We all suffer, and how we handle those hurts and sorrows really shows a lot about who we are. I personally feel that it is very important to watch how you handle problems in front of your kids. Children learn from watching their parents. If something goes wrong in your day, and you start yelling, they are also going to learn to yell when something goes wrong. We are their only example at this age. It is very important to be a good one. Anyway, that's all for now. Nite all.

1. Expect suffering

   John 15:19-20; 16:2, 20, 33;
   Heb. 12:9-10; 2 Tim. 3:12

Finally!! I am writing this thing out at a decent hour. The open house today didn't go well. Evidently no body came by. Turns out someone had knocked down the street signs that the guy had put out. SO that might have been why. I don't really care too much about it though. We get a lot of people coming through just with appointments. So it doesn't matter too much to me. I know that it will sell. Isaiah had a great time at the zoo today. James said that he really loved the snake exhibits and also the monkeys. I knew that he would. He thinks monkeys are great. It's too bad though that they didn't have elephants, he would love to see those.
I ended up staying at my great grandma's house the whole time feeling incredibly tired while I was there. Evelyn was really good for me though and it is so nice that she is finally eating breakfast, lunch, dinner, and then a night time snack. It makes it so much easier on me when I want to take her out somewhere. I hated it when I would go out and then every couple hours she would need to eat. It makes it very hard to go shopping and to the park. Especially since most parks don't have hot water in the bathrooms. Which I guess I can understand when it comes to not wanting the kids to get burned, but they could at least have it so there is warm water. Something would be helpful, after all, some of us need to make formula while we are there.

I was thinking that it would be kind of bad if we sold this house before we had a chance to get another one in Michigan, but then I thought that it might make things easier. I mean we could then just stay with someone else until we did, and we would also have the money from this one right a way when we do buy the new house. But, I know that James will say no to that idea in a split second. Plus it would be bad for him when it comes to working from home the two days out of the week.

     I really am looking forward to seeing the pictures of that other house though. So far we have seen a house in the town of Webster, she couldn't get a whole lot of pictures, because she didn't have room on the memory card, but here are the ones that she did get.    www.ClickAnnArbor.com
Then there is the house that I am really looking forward to seeing. That's this one.
ClickAnnArbor.com

     Now personally, I think that based solely on the description of the second one, that is probably the one to get. Of course we have to assume that it is as good as it sounds. But I do have a good feeling about it.

     Anyway, James is in the living room right now with the baby watching the movie Dogma, and Isaiah is running around like a crazy person on drugs.   The baby is sitting with James completely happy and I am thinking that assuming that the kids all go to bed on time, that I might actually do the same. That would be amazing. Oh, also, we have been saying a prayer at night with Isaiah lately. He is doing so good. He holds our hands the whole time and keeps his eyes closed. He tries to say Amen, but can't really do it yet. I can't wait until he starts asking questions about it and stuff. That will mean he is actually learning you know.

Anyway, I think that I am done for now. But, we will be at church tomorrow, so I will see most of you there. Bye.

Well, here I am and it is very late yet again. I know why that happened though. Tomorrow is our open house and I had to clean up the main section of the house tonight, and then tomorrow I will take care of the bedrooms and bathrooms. I am pretty tired though right now, and I know that I have to get some rest. I don't know where I am going to go tomorrow though during the open house. Isaiah is going to the Zoo with James and Kevin, so they will be gone. I might just go to my grandma's house. That way I can relax.

I made dinner tonight for Lorenda and her kids. We played a dice game afterward and had fun. It was her first time playing and she actually won! Lucky I say. We'll have to see if she can do it next time.

I am going to be done right now though, need to sleep. Sorry about that. But I will let you know how everything goes for the open house. Bye.

Well here I sit watching ER and trying to write this thing out. As usual there is an injured baby and so I am instantly expecting to cry by the end of this. You know, babies and young kids are the ones that I have a hard time watching bad things happen to. I just feel like they should never have to experience pain. They should only be laughing, and having a good time. And here I am listening to this lame excuse of a mother talking about the reason she made her car crash is because she just wanted it all to stop. That has got to be one of the lamest things I have ever heard. I will never understand women who do not have undying love for their children. I don't care if all your kids do is scream and yell for 90% of your day...there is still the 10% to feel wonderful about. And that is something special...every time your baby smiles at you is special. Today I had Evelyn in her walker, and I was pushing her away from me, and then quickly pulling her back while making funny noises, she was cracking up laughing at me. That was so wonderful. I love seeing her smile and laugh. She is beautiful. She is so pretty.

So, here we are 40 minutes into the show and still not that far into my journal. I have a friend going through something pretty big right now, and it is really making me feel blessed to have the marriage that I have. Not many women have it like I do. I know this based solely on the fact that I have many friends who complain to me about their husbands. It really does make me realize how lucky I am that God gave me this man to spend my life with. Someone who loves me, supports me, understands me, and cares about what I think. I hate it when I hear about guys who don't even....no, no I am not going to go there tonight. I am just going to leave it at I am very blessed.

Isaiah was nuts today. I mean the kid is way too attached to his dad right now and I swear that he nearly had an anxiety attack this morning when James left. I just couldn't calm him down. He was freaking out so much. Thankfully he finally did calm down, and I was able to get him interested in some fun stuff.

I am so sick and tired of hearing all of the protests about not having a SuperWalmart built. And it's always the people who own their own stores that protest. You know what? Here is the simple truth. People who do not want to pay high prices will always shop at Wal-Mart or stores like it. People who shop at family owned stores do so because they like the product or the people, or whatever. People who want Wal-Mart will drive to the next town to go there, so if one is built in their town, odds are those people will now be able to simply do their shopping in their own town. Is it possible that some businesses might go under? Yes, of course. I am not trying to be mean, but that is life. Personally, I would always rather shop at a store where I can get an item cheaper. I mean I might find a really cute kids outfit at a small store, and odds are it would cost $17.00 or more. But, I can get a outfit just as cute at Wal-Mart for like $9.99. You can't beat that. I mean this may sound cruel but of course I am going to want to save money more than I am going to want to buy an outfit from an expensive store. And lets face it, those family owned stores, and personal businesses are always more expensive. It's just a fact. It is.

Anyway, I guess that is all for now. South Park is on TV right now and I want to watch that anyway. It is so funny. Nite all.

10/12/05
11:51pm

Well, sorry about last night people. I don't even really know how it got so late, but it did and I just made the decision to skip the writing. I was so tired all day as it was. Of course, I was tired all day today too. And here I am again, up late, tired, but determined to write this thing out. Last night Evelyn ended up getting sick. Unfortunately though she never cried to let me know, so when she woke up this morning and I went in to get her she had dried puke all over her face, clothes, and crib. It did not smell good. Turns out that my mom is also sick. She ended up staying home from work today, a good thing too, since she was throwing up all day. To think that I have gotten 4 people sick so far. I am on a roll.

We got pictures today of one of the houses that we were interested in. It was really nice, and the whole back yard was fenced. The only thing that I did not like was that the kitchen was kind of small. I am thinking that since we are going to be a house of six people, the bigger the kitchen the better. She is supposed to be emailing the pictures from the other houses in the morning. I am really looking forward to seeing them because I want to pick another house to bid on. Although I can't help but think that it is pointless since we still do not have an offer on our house. Which I realize is normal. It has not been that long...and sometimes it can take a while. I just feel like it would be cool to get stuff going though you know...I hate feeling like I am stagnate. I want things to get going.

Tomorrow there is another realtor bringing a family by to see the house. I haven't decided whether or not I want to be here for it. The problem is that they want to come between 6pm and 6:30pm. Now, if I leave I risk missing Survivor at 7pm. I know that it is a small chance, but still, I don't want to miss it. This may sound stupid to you, but to a TV buff like myself, it is practically life or death. Hopefully this will not be a problem...although I suppose that if they like the house it will be worth it.

Did I tell you that on October 29th Isaiah will be going to see Disney on Ice? My mother in law Patty will be taking him and Isaiah's cousin Logan to see it. I think that he is really going to enjoy it. Also, this Friday Isaiah will be going to the Sacramento Zoo with James and Kevin. Then...next week James is going to take Isaiah with him to work. It's like the kid as an itinerary. He's popular.

Ok, and last of all, there is a lady in Arkansas who just gave birth to her 16th child. That is simply crazy!!! I can not imagine 4, let alone 16. And, she said she wants more! Can you imagine all the money they are going to have to put out for school, weddings, cars, and general expenses? And then, when they are all older, just think of the mass amount of grand kids. I can not even begin to imagine. Simply insane.

Conan O'Brian just came on TV, and I realize that it is kind of his thing, but I really can't stand his hair. It is horrible. I hate it. Why would a man do that to himself? It's just like when balding me do those comb overs. It looks stupid. Don't they realize how dumb it is? Don't they know that they would look so much better if they just cut their hair short. Like Donald Trump! You know that man is just hiding a massive bald spot. Anyway, that is all I guess. Gotta go. Bye.

10/11/05
1:25am

Nothing right now people. It is too late and I am going to bed. Sorry.

10/10/05
11:07pm

First of all, we just started the movie Crash. I am expecting great things from it. Today was a good day. I went to Target and Wal-Mart tonight with Isaiah and bought him some fun crafty projects that we can do together while Evelyn is sleeping. I got some really good stuff too. Different things for him to paint, and I got side walk chalk, and even some play-doh. It should be fun for us to do. Oh, I also got him a memory card game. He plays those on the internet a lot and is really good at them.

Wow, this movie is seriously good. But just like ER, I also don't like it. It is about racism. And it is one of those movies that shows everyone at their worst. It shows how some people really think, and talk. I know that this movie is showing what life is really like in this world. But I don't like that kind of thing though you know. I don't like seeing what the world is really like. I don't like when good people in the movie, good people who have children, look as if they are going to get killed. It is enough to make me want to simply turn off the movie so I can pretend that the good dad in this movie lives. Now, I don't know if he lives or dies or not, nothing has happened yet, but I have a bad feeling that he is going to die. OH MY GOD!!!! It just happened, and the daughter ran in front of him, and the bullet looked like it got her, and I just started crying, but it turns out that the bullets were blank. James and I both just were so upset, and then we were so very happy. So very very happy. OH, I LOVE HAPPY ENDINGS!!! Not that all the endings in this are happy, but that one at least was. To be quite honest that was about the only happy ending in this whole thing. Everyone else had a stupid depressing ending. Ugh, the world really does belong in the trash. I don't like my kids living here in this world. I am seriously terrified of something bad happening to them. Death is on the top of that list. You know what the problem is? This movie was awesome, full of despair, and it was quite simply excellent. But, I don't think that I can ever watch it again. It was too stressful.

Anyway...that is all for now. I need to go to bed, it's almost 1am. I know that I am going to end up having some bad dream now about my children being shot at.

Oh, I forgot, I wanted to show you guys something that my mother in law sent me. It was cute.

PECANS IN THE CEMETERY

On the outskirts of a small town, there was a big, old pecan tree just inside the cemetery fence. One day, two boys filled up a bucketful of nuts and sat down by the tree, out of sight, and began dividing the nuts "One for you, one for me. One for you, one for me," said one boy. Several dropped and rolled down toward the fence. Another boy came riding along the road on his bicycle. As he passed, he thought he heard voices from inside the cemetery. He slowed down to investigate. Sure enough, he heard, "One for you, one for me. One for you, one for me." He just knew what it was. He jumped back on his bike and rode off.

Just around the bend he met an old man with a cane, hobbling along. "Come here quick," said the boy, "you won't believe what I heard! Satan and the Lord are down at the cemetery dividing up the souls."

The man said, "Beat it kid, can't you see it's hard for me to walk." When the boy insisted though, the man hobbled to the cemetery. Standing by the fence they heard, "One for you, one for me. One for you, one for me..."

The old man whispered, "Boy, you've been tellin' the truth. Let's see if we can see the Lord." Shaking with fear, they peered through the fence, yet were still unable to see anything. The old man and the boy gripped the wrought iron bars of the fence tighter and tighter as they tried to get a glimpse of the Lord.

At last they heard, "One for you, one for me. That's all. Now let's go get those nuts by the fence and we'll be done."

They say the old man made it back to town a full 5 minutes ahead of the boy on the bike!

10/9/05
10:22pm

Well, everyone was feeling good today and after making sure that the house was in tip top shape, we left the house in the very capable hands of the realtor who was here for the open house. Her name was Karen, and wow was she pretty. I would never have guessed that she was 36 years old with 3 kids. I was thinking 25-28 years old. Beautiful lady and a wonderful personality to top it off. She left us a note that she really didn't get any much business. 3 families came by and only two were actually in the market to buy. But, that happens sometimes...so I am not too worried about it.

While that was going on though we spent the day at James' parents house. After we got there and settled I took off really quick to go see Jessica's new baby. She was cute. So small compared to my little ones. She was dark though with dark hair. She looked a lot like her dad. I stayed there for about 30 minutes and then went to Tiffany's moms house where Tiffany was at for the weekend. She had some pictures and a cd for me to pick up. So I did that and then headed back to the family. We had a great time. James' brother Gus and his family are currently living there so Isaiah got to play with his cousin Logan. They had fun. At one point though James was in the yard wrestling with Isaiah and accidentally kicked Isaiah in the nose. Well, as you can figure, a bloody nose was the result of that. A pretty bad one too. Blood was all over the place. Took a while to clean up and Isaiah was freaking out about it. Tonight before he went into bed, I was looking at his nose, and noticed that it was completely clogged up with dried blood. So James and I had to bribe him into letting us clean it. And even then he was only semi cooperative. It was pretty gross though when I did clean it out. Of course being the boy that he is, once I showed him the blood clots that came out with the Q-Tip he thought it was pretty cool.

So obviously we did not go to church today. I suppose that we could have made it, and James and Isaiah were feeling fine. But I think that it was a good thing to stay home and get the house a little bit extra clean you know. I was able to do things like clean the windows inside and out, throw some things a way. Stuff like that. It was a good thing.

Well, I was just filling out the inventory sheet for the moving company that we are going to use and with that you list everything that you will be bringing. Really, we will not be bringing much. I was actually surprised at how little. I assume that it will not cost as much as originally thought. And, since a lot of the houses do include appliances, such as the refrigerators and washers and dryers, we might be able to sell ours with this house and leave them. So that would be nice. Anyway, that was my day. Fun and bloody... just like that song, "Bloody Sunday", that's kind of funny. lol Bye.

25 Reasons Christians Suffer

25.) To show us God's sovereignty.
Romans 8:28; 1 Corinthians 10:13;
Psalms 66:10-12; Genesis 45:5-8

P.S. Next I will be doing "13 Proper Reactions To Suffering"

10/8/05
9:23pm

Well, last night did not go well. Isaiah was busy throwing up until about 2am. That was also the time when James decided to start throwing up. Figures huh? So, this morning I sent Evelyn to stay the night at my mom and dads house so that way she wouldn't catch it. Isaiah seems to be feeling better right now, James still looks kind of sick, but I think it is mainly fatigue and lack of food. I don't know if we will be going to church or not, but probably not, I don't want to risk anyone else getting sick you know. Especially any senior citizens, they can be at higher risk for this kind of thing. Which is exactly why I will not be going to visit my grandma tomorrow either.

But, we will be going somewhere, since the open house is tomorrow. It's from 1-4pm. So, if you wanna stop by feel free. 410 Vineyard Drive, Lodi. I am going to be trying my very best to make sure that everything looks really great. Lorenda brought her husband by today to see our house. I don't know what he thought of the house, but I do know that they are now buying the air hockey table. So that is pretty cool. Helps me out a lot.

Also, in other news, we are not going to get that house. Our realtor finally got in to it, and it turns out that some things where not as they seemed, I won't get into it, but we are going to try for some other ones in towns all around Ann Arbor and in it. She sent us a bunch of them that would work for us, and James and I choose 4 that we liked the best. If you click on the link below you can view the ones we like. You just have to scroll through them on the bottom using the arrows where the addresses appear. We like the ones on 7452 Wheeler Road, 8856 Trillium, 7668 Pioneer, and 7771 Pleasant Lane.
Which one do you like best? Let your opinion be known. lol

http://aaar.mlxchange.com/Pub/EmailView.asp?r=95580222&s=AAR&t=AAR

You know what is just so sad...I just saw some children crying on the news that had been hurt from that huge earth quake. I have been so busy today taking care of my sick family that it wasn't until a little while ago that I actually got to hear about it all. So horrible. You know, I can't help but notice that so many natural disasters are happening in our world right now...and it also makes me wonder if maybe it is God casting some form of judgment on the world, or simply trying to drive certain nations of people closer to him. I know that in the bible there were many different times when God chose to destroy cities because they had strayed from him to much, and the whole place was evil. Now, I am not saying that is the case here, I am just saying it was something that popped into my head as a possibility. Well, I guess that is all for me tonight. I am going to clean up some of the house and then say a prayer for good health for my family, and for a good open house tomorrow.

25 Reasons Christians Suffer

24.) To prepare us for the kingdom.
2 Thessalonians 1:5; 2 Timothy 2:12

10/7/05
8:16pm

Well, I was watching a movie with James, but then James' mom called and said Isaiah threw up, (he was gonna stay the night there) so since I was feeding the baby James went to go get him. I don't really think that he is sick though. He has done that before. Sometimes he will just throw up for what seems like no reason at all, and then be fine. But I know they don't want to risk getting sick, so I don't mind us going to get him. It's too bad though, I know he would have had a good time.

Another family came and looked at our house tonight...I wasn't quite ready for it, so we had to do a quick clean up. They had a little girl named Zoey, and they really liked Evelyn's room. I was glad because it would be nice if a little girl could have that room. I would hate for that mural to go to waste.

I tried to go see my friend Jessica's new baby today since I am feeling better, but I couldn't get a hold of her. I will have to try again some other time. Tiffany should be coming over tomorrow though and so it will be nice to get to see her. I am going to try to help her with a gift for her dad's 50th birthday party. It is going to be a big celebration, and she wants to give him something special. Hopefully I can help her...I won't say what it is though, incase some one read this who shouldn't.

Well, it is now 10:25pm. Isaiah has come home and has thrown up at least 4 times. I sat behind him while he puked and held him, I kept telling him it would be ok, and that he was doing really good. Honestly though I think that I was feeling worse than he was. He didn't cry or anything. He handled it very well. I can only imagine that he caught whatever 24 hour flu I had. So hopefully he will feel better in the morning, since Tiffany is coming over and I don't want to get her sick.

So, Lorenda is hoping to bring her husband by here this weekend to see our house. He has only seen it once, and that was just the living room. So hopefully he will like it, and want to buy it, and if not hopefully someone else will. And...hopefully we will hear back on the other house. Also, a friend of my mom and dad's went to AAA and had them make a driving map up from here to Ypsilanti Michigan. It looks like the whole drive is on the highway. And when James did a more in depth search he found out that if we drive 12 hours a day, that we can get there in about 3 days. Probably 6-8 hours more should be added on though for bathroom breaks, eating, and also just getting up and walking around breaks. And this travel program that James got from his friend Jeff even shows you where hotels are and restaurants.

By the way, the movie A Lot Like Love...very good. Great romantic comedy...maybe not for everyone...I don't remember the rating. But I liked it a whole lot and it was funny. I like Ashton Kutcher a lot. So...I guess that is all for now. I should go to bed I suppose. Or maybe not, whatever. lol. Bye

25 Reasons Christians Suffer

23.) To provide for us a reward.
Matthew 5:10:12, 19:27-29; Romans 8:16-17;
2 Corinthians 4:17

10/6/05
8:26pm

Ok, so last night I went to bed at around 10pm. Then I really started feeling sick. I went to the bathroom because my stomach felt particularly gross. I called James when I got up and asked him to please bring me some water, I also felt very dehydrated. While I was in there using the bathroom, I told James that I thought I was going to throw up. Next thing I know I am on the ground asking James why I am down there. Turns out I passed out, hit the wall, and then fell face down on the floor. Well, James said he turned me over I had puke all in my mouth, so he leaned me over to get it out. Then I woke up, and threw up some more. I kept throwing up for most of the night. Right now I still feel really sick to my stomach. I tried to eat some dinner, but I didn't feel up to eat. It wasn't making me feel good. I don't know if I am done throwing up or not, but I suppose that I will find out tonight. Anyway, that is how my night went. Horrible I know. I basically stayed in bed all day today. I slept a lot, but I still feel really tired. So, I guess you could say that I don't have much else to write about when it comes to what I did. I will say that James was really great though in taking care of me. Lorenda took Evelyn for quite a while and that made watching Isaiah a whole lot easier for James. Please pray for my health. The house is a mess, which isn't good for people who might want to come see the house. Hopefully I will be able to get that cleaned up tomorrow.

Oh, we got a response from the people we want to buy that house from. The made a counter offer. The changed some stuff. We don't mind most of it, so we responded with another offer, we accepted everything but one...we'll see what happens. Probably hear about it tomorrow. Of course we still have to sell our house, and that hasn't happened yet. But Lorenda wants to buy our house, and she mentioned it to her husband Jose, and he said no at first, but I guess now he is considering it. Something about renting their place and using the equity from it to buy our house. I think that would be great. I would love it if someone that I knew and loved bought our house. I always hated the idea of some stranger coming in and enjoying my house and all I have done to it. But whatever. I am going to just sit here, finish watching The Apprentice, and then ER. After that, I think it's all about going to bed. Talk to you all later.

25 Reasons Christians Suffer

22.) To prepare us for a greater ministry.
1 Kings 17:18; John 12-14

10/5/05
9:38pm

My tummy feels sick. Like really sick right now. So I am not going to be writing this tonight. Hopefully I will feel better in the morning.

25 Reasons Christians Suffer

21.) To drive us closer to God.
1 Peter 4:14; 2 Corinthians 12:10

10/4/05
9:46pm

Today I took the kids to get their pictures taken. Lorenda went with us and she got her kids pictures too. I am going to scan them in hopefully tonight and put them up for you to see. They all turned out so great. I was very happy with them. Evelyn was so good even though I know she was hungry. She didn't cry and she even had some good smiles. I am so glad that I have great kids. Isaiah was even better today because I kept telling him that he could only play video games tonight if he was good until 6pm. That worked great.

My friend Jessica had her baby today at around 1:30pm. She weighed in at 8 pounds 1 ounce and has dark hair and dark eyes. Her name is Lyndin Aurora Garcia. One more girl added to the population. I would have gone and seen her today, but Isaiah also was kind of sick today...he has a runny nose and a cough. So since I am a nice person and didn't want to get a newborn sick, I stayed a way. I will hopefully get to go see her and the baby when she comes home though, that way I can maybe leave my kids here and not have to worry about them causing any trouble or getting little babies sick.

I really need to get my laundry started, but I am being so lazy about it. I don't know why laundry is one of those things that you just never want to get up and do. It's not like it's hard or anything, but you just can't help but continually make excuses why you shouldn't get up and do it.

I am in shock right now at the ridiculous prices that the news paper is allowed to charge to place an ad in it. I just went online, and to place a six day ad in the Lodi news sentinel for my air hockey table in the paper and on the website it would cost me $246.50. OH MY GOSH!!! Are they insane? If I just do the paper, it's $152.00!! Oh that's a whole lot better. LOL I can't believe them. I am going to put it on eBay I think. That will be easier. Those people are insane.

So, I just finished posting it on eBay, and you know how much that cost me? $3.00. Yep, much better. But, I am thinking that if I can't sell it, I will just donate it. I need to get rid of it. So I will give it the seven days it's listed for and then decide what to do. Not that I have any idea who to donate it to. I am sure that the youth at church would love it, but I have no idea where they would put it at the church. It's pretty huge. Anybody else out there know someone who might want to buy it? Let me know. Well, I got 8 hours sleep yesterday, and I am going to try for that again. It's nice. Bye.

25 Reasons Christian Suffer

20.) To give us insight into God's nature.
Job 42:5; Romans 8:14-15, 18

10/3/05
9:13pm

So today was good. We found out that the house we want to put a bid on is no longer on the market. Evidently the owners hadn't gotten any offers, and so they thought that it was pointless. Well, we are interested, so Alicia (our realtor) got a hold of theirs and was trying to get in to see the inside, but evidently this is that realtors very first house he has tried to sell, and he was dumb and locked the keys to the house in the house...so now he is trying to get a hold of the owners (who are now living in Minnesota) so he can get back in. The only good thing here is that since it is not on the market, we are the only ones who are going to be trying for it. Cool huh? So I am really hoping that we can get this house.

You know we compared the school district that we would be in to the school districts here on this website called www.schoolmatters.com and the schools in that town are actually two times better then the ones here. It is so crazy how down the drain this whole state is going. I am feeling more and more that James is right. If we want to give our kids all the opportunity we can when it comes to their education, then we are going to have to move. The average classroom size there is 20 students per class. Isn't that awesome? I am so glad. I feel like this really is the best thing for our family. And we found out that the house we want to get does allow a fence, the only restriction is that it can only be waist high. I guess they don't want any body to actually have privacy.

Tomorrow I am going with Lorenda to get ours kids pictures taken. I want to get Evelyn some by herself, and one with her and Isaiah, and then maybe one with the three of us, you know, just the kids and their mom. I think that would be sweet. You know what else would be cool? If Isaiah was tired and went to bed. He is still awake. It's my fault though, I let him take a late nap...he didn't wake up until after 7pm. Live and learn.

So, I am watching the TV show Prison Break. It is so good. The main character is so incredibly gorgeous. I love those rough and tough looking guys...how I ended up with James I'll never know, he really isn't the type of guy I used to go for. But, I guess I just saw something special in him huh? It was his humor. He has always been able to make me laugh...and that is incredibly important in a relationship, you have to be able to laugh at yourself, and at each other.

So, I am having James put some pictures on here. I am including the pictures from when James and his best friend Kevin went to LA to meet the stars of that movie Mallrats. I finally put them on my computer and remembered that I wanted to put them on here. I think that it is really exciting that he got to meet them in person.

Oh, I almost forgot...if you want to come see our house, just for fun or because your interested...we are having an open house on Sunday from 1-4pm. We won't be here of course, our realtor asked us to be gone for it and instead he will stay here to show people around. I hope that someone sees it and falls in love with it like we did. Well, that's all for me...goodnight people. Oh, wait...I almost forgot...I found my cell phone!!! Isaiah put it under the dogs bed. Can you believe that kid. The places they can think of to put things. One day I am going to just hide his favorite toy and tell him, "It's gone." and see what he does. lol

25 Reasons Christian Suffer

19.) To make us more than conquerors.
2 Corinthians 2:14; Romans 8:35, 37

10/2/05
12:06am

Well, Sunday is gone already if I am going by the time. And it was a good one. After church I went to my grandma's house, my mom and my grandma Sheila were also there, and my aunt Shari called from Arizona and I got to talk to her for quite a while. She is excited for us when it comes to us moving to Michigan. I am too actually. I am not as sad anymore right now, but I know that when our house sells, and we buy a house, all the things start getting finalized, then I know I will probably get depressed. I know I will cry. Oddly enough I have become rather calm about the whole plane thing. I have kind of accepted the fact that I am going to have to do it. Do I still think I am going to die? Yes...I am fairly sure that it may still happen. But at least I will die with my whole family. Well, almost all...my mom and dad are driving up with the dogs, so they won't die on the plane...just me and my kids...and with my luck James will survive and then he'll still go live in Michigan and he'll meet some hot little skinny thing up there who will love him and want to take care of this sad man who just lost his family. blah blah blah. ok, maybe not. Or at least he better not do that right a way...I mean he should grieve my loss for at least 6 months I think before he starts dating again. I think that is pretty good. Now, if I were to die and he had the kids, I would expect him to wait much longer to be honest. I have told him in fact that I want him to wait more than a year, yea at least, and that he has to always talk to the kids about me, and show them my picture so they don't forget me. Of course, this is all pointless chatter, since I am willing to bet James will die before me in which case I will end up being a blubbering mess. ugh.

Well, I did want to mention that I really enjoyed Iona's journal today. I feel badly for her that the trip is to mourn the death of a loved one, but I am glad that she has all this time to spend talking to God and reflecting on her past experiences. Wow what a great story she told. I feel like hers would be a great life story to read. I would buy that book. I hope that we get to hear some more good ones soon.

JC Penny's was having a really big sale today along with coupons that the employees could give out to friends or family for another 20% off. Lorenda who works there gave us one...so we went and stocked up on some winter clothes...bought Isaiah a big warm jacket, James some more pants and shirts, and although I couldn't find a jacket for me there, I did see one at Wal-Mart that I did like. So I might go buy that one. Another thing that we have to buy is a lid for the toilet tank in our hall bathroom. Isaiah was going potty today, and when he was done he decided to lift it up and see what was in it, well, James told him to put it down, but I guess James kind of surprised Isaiah and he dropped it, breaking it in 5 pieces. So far we have not found a store that sells just the tank lid. So, if the one store that is left also doesn't sell one, we will end up having to buy a whole new toilet. Bummer. And of course, an hour after that happened, a realtor called and said he had some people who wanted to come see the house. So we left and I put a note on the mirror explaining what happened and that we would be replacing it. It just figures you know, kids have great timing. Anyway, that's all for now...bye.

25 Reasons Christians Suffer

18.) To further the gospel witness.
Acts 8:1-5, 16:25-34; Philippians 1:12-13;
2 Timothy 4:6-8, 16-17

P.S. The place that I get the Word of the Day from does not change the word on the weekends, so you'll get a new one tomorrow.

10/01/05
9:40pm

Well, I am determined to get this done early tonight. That way I can just finish my cleaning and be done with it. I have come to the conclusion that my phone is simply lost. It has been 3 days now since my phone went missing with no sign of it yet. I do remember last seeing it with Isaiah...figures. And since then nothing. I tried calling it, but that has not worked, and even worse even if it was on, I am sure that by now it is dead. My only hope is that I find it when we move out of here, but what good is that going to do me? I can't remember if I have a warranty or not, but obviously I am going to have to find out. Do I just get a new phone? Who knows, I will probably do whatever they recommend. I am just annoyed with it all.

We got the pictures of the houses. The one that I mentioned we didn't think would work out, didn't. Too small and where it is located it probably wouldn't make us much money. The other one was big enough, but it became obvious why they did not show pictures of the bedrooms and bathrooms on the website. Ugly wallpaper, and the master bath was not great either. So, forget about that one. We instead decided to try to find a house in the town right next to Ann Arbor called Ypsilanti. I have no idea how to pronounce that one. So...we did a search, and oh my gosh!! The houses are gigantic and even cheaper then in Ann Arbor. We picked one out that is just beautiful. The yard has been designed so that you can access the basement from outside. There is a door and windows. The put a big kitchen down there, full bathroom, bedroom, and living room. It's another house down there. The house itself is gorgeous. 4 bedrooms, and wow is it pretty. There isn't to much yard that would actually be our property, more than what we have now, but not a lot. I think that's ok though because it's not like the property ends there...after our property line ends, there is a pond and a forest like view beyond. Beautiful. We asked our realtor to take some pictures of the whole house for us just to make sure, but at the same time to draw up the papers, because unless the house has some kind of horrible problem, we are going to try for that one. Here is the link if you wanna see it. http://clickannarbor.com This will take you right to the page. There are some other incredibly nice houses too though that we can try for if this one doesn't work out. I am amazed though at the prices. Guess what that house is going for? $284,000!!! That's it. I mean are they crazy? Or maybe it's just California that's nuts...because I swear that this is the only place that has prices like this.

I had that yard sale today. I made fifty bucks. Not to bad. Sold half of what I had out there. The crazy thing is that there really won't be a whole lot to sell...most of it is just furniture, and we seem to know who is getting what in regards to that. This move is going to consist of mainly boxes I think. Well, all in all I think that I had a pretty good day. Isaiah was a little bit more calm...dare I say it may have been the fact that he had his video game fix? Possibly...and frankly that would be very strange.

Tomorrow is church...another day of hearing the word of God. I am sure that it will be good. Usually is. But, there is something else that is happening tomorrow that is also important, it is my Great Grandma Nora's birthday. She is going to be 88 years old. Praise God! I am thinking about running out to Wal-Mart very soon and buying her something. I know that I won't have time in the morning. She is such a wonderful lady and I am so glad that she is here to see my kids. So...off I go...blah blah blah...gotta clean my house. What a wonderfully exciting thing to go do huh? See most of you tomorrow...bye.

25 Reasons Christians Suffer

17.) To qualify us as counselors.
Romans 12:15; Galatians 6:2; 2 Corinthians 1:3-5

P.S. James is playing video games right now, how much you wanna bet that he will be up until at least 2am? If he is falling asleep in church tomorrow, I guess you'll know the answer. lol